My wayward journey
In His Sovereignty
After contemplating how my testimony began, my mind is drawn to Holy Scripture Ephesians 1:4“I was chosen in him before the foundation of the world”. Since my introduction to the doctrines of grace it has become clear to me that irresistible grace (God drawing me to himself) was and is a reality in my journey.
Some years ago what I believe now to be Gods sovereign saving grace is that he took a wicked sinner like me and by his mercy alone regenerated me, granted me the gift of repentance and faith. It was at that time in ignorance I embraced the error of faith before repentance as is preached in most mainline evangelical pulpits today.
Most of my Christian progress was in Pentecostal churches where your personal choice of allowing Christ to be your Lord and Savior was the starting point of your born again experience. Today I can also say that what was lacking was the expository preaching of the word coupled with learning and applying right theology in my life, thus I never knew where I stood with God. It was also normal preaching to hear that one could by there own volition walk away from God at any time, not knowing we were incapable of coming to God on our own in the first place. This lead to even more confusion and grief over the years.
Looking back at the churches where I was baptized(full immersion),fellow-shipped, outreached and heard preaching weekly for years I always felt something was missing,something wasn't quite right and it was way overboard on the fleshy emotionalism.
It was fall of last year that through the internet I began to view a series of lectures from an online theology program and it was through this venue I happened upon Wayne Grudems book Systematic Theology. This in turn lead me to Monergisms website where I emailed Jim Hendryx the site owner and ask his assistance in tracking down a church that preaches reformed theology in the GTA, of course being from the USA he had no idea but he did point me to the reformed blogging guru Tim Challies.I did get in contact with Tim for a church reference and of course he was kind enough to point me to his home church "the greatest church in the world."
Like Job I could question God “Why me!” Why was I left to languish in Armianism for so long? Then Job answered the Lord.I am unworthy-how can I reply to you? I put my hand over my mouth. Now that’s sound theology and advice I will subscribe to!!
I am so thankful for the cross and what Christ has done in that he shed his blood to save me from the wrath to come.
What more can I say I am justified in Christ and I glory in that.
Gregory Shunk 2007